The Ghost of Christmas Past

Posted on December 25, 2010 by Bobosan

It’s hard to believe it’s Christmas already. I spent the day doing the same thing I did last year. I slept in until about one pm, then promptly woke up and had breakfast/dinner at Dennys. There were five text messages from friends wishing me a happy Christmas, and I always think that’s odd. This holiday has no meaning to me what-so-ever. There is nothing special about it, and the added stress of everyone running around attempting to get their Christmas shopping done has always annoyed me. But then again, I don’t believe in a God, so I suppose most Atheists out there feel the same way.

I’ve spent the last few days playing World of Warcraft on the new computer I built. I’m digging this system, and have had more fun overclocking the damn thing than I did building it. I was originally going to add water cooling a few months down the line, but it turns out there isn’t a waterblock available for my GPU. Meh, go figure. I suppose I’ll have to invest some money in some new fans to get the CFM up to where I can overclock a little more extreme. That should entertain me for a few once I get all the stuff available. On a side note, it’s so nice to have a working desktop once again. My laptop used to get burning hot when I was playing it on my lap, and I won’t miss being burned by it.

I’m still feeling pretty down overall. I was sick a few weeks ago with Tonsillitis, and still seem to lack the motivation to actually go out and do things. Every workday I just look forward to 4:30 pm when I can leave and come home. When I get home, I stare at a screen for 8 hours, pretending everything is okay. I can’t sleep most nights, and when I do, I fall into a heavier sleep than normal. I was on Standby for work on Christmas Eve, but I got a call at 530 am or so telling me I didnt have to go in. I slept straight thru two alarms I forgot to turn off when I got the call. The things were beeping for HOURS, and I imagine the neighbors above me hate me right about now. Fuck em’.

Sometimes I wonder if I have something like Seasonal Affective Disorder. Maybe that would explain why every winter I get so damn shitty. But damnit, those lights to treat the thing are freaking expensive. I guess I’m stuck with my original plan of just persevering through all my down times..

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Turkey Day ’10

Posted on November 25, 2010 by Bobosan

Holidays don’t mean much to me at all. Thanksgiving…it’s just another day. Just another day like Christmas and New Years, and some extent, my birthday as well. But like everyone else, I have my normal Thanksgiving traditions.

Some families get together and watch football, and have an amazing dinner. Hell, I even know a family that makes Gumbo for their meal. But I’m a traditionalist, my meal is turkey. So for the last 5 or 6 years, I’ve eaten at Cracker Barrel. The food there is better than anything I could make myself, and is pretty decently priced. I think it was $8.99 for turkey, stuffing, sweet potato puree (of some sort), green beans, a coke, and a slice of pie. Sometimes I’ll eat in, sometimes I’ll get it to go.

I ate inside the store tonight. Usually, these days are pretty boring. I got rear-ended coming back from the restaurant. I still have my old F150, since Ross let me borrow it due to the Heater Core fiasco on the Monte Carlo. Some lady in front of me slammed on her brakes, for some reason, and I barely stopped in time to prevent hitting her. I had enough time to verbally sigh that I didn’t hit her, before a SUV ran into the rear of me. Maybe he was following too closely.

It didn’t do any real damage to the truck. The bumper is probably trashed, but it doesn’t look the chassis itself is damaged. I felt bad about calling Ross, but he didnt seem too upset about it. I guess he realizes he might get a new bumper out of the deal, and it won’t cost him anything. I suppose the guy really is a good friend. I better not say that too loudly….

So after being engorged on pie, and ran into, I finally make it home. I think the plan for the rest of the night will probably be leveling up some lowbies on World of Warcraft, and watching Trainspotting. I’ve never seen the entire movie start to finish, and this seems like a good day to actually finish it.

Hopefully tomorrow should be a more interesting day. I have five days off of work, and two weeks from now I took another week off for Cataclysm. Nerdy, yes. Needed, probably. It’s going to be hard to go in Monday knowing I actually have a full work week, but maybe, just maybe, I’ll pull through and not be pissed by Friday.

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Mostly True?

Posted on November 21, 2010 by Bobosan

The best quote from The Social Network:

“You are probably going to be a very successful computer person. But you’re going to go through life thinking that girls don’t like you because you’re a nerd. And I want you to know, from the bottom of my heart, that that won’t be true. It’ll be because you’re an asshole.”

That made made my night, as well as made me almost fall from my chair in laughter.

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Stupid, Broken Keyboard

Posted on October 5, 2010 by Bobosan

So I just got this keyboard I ordered from E-bay, and I think there’s a slight problem.

Stupid Chinese packaging problem!

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The Only Get Rich Quick Scheme…

Posted on October 4, 2010 by Bobosan

The only get rich quick scheme is to sell other people your get rich quick scheme. Maybe some weekend I need to sit down and knock out an e-book.

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Inception

Posted on July 18, 2010 by Bobosan

I just watched Inception, and I’m awestruck by how amazing this movie was. I think I’m going to try to catch ANOTHER showing of it tomorrow, just so I can figure out some lingering plot twists. FREAKING AMAZING MOVIE! I think it even beat out Shutter Island in my book :) .

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Stupid Router’s.

Posted on June 17, 2010 by Bobosan

I thought I had a computer virus someone that Avast didn’t catch. I spent 13 hours scanning, chkdsk’ing, and booting live CDs to scan for virsues only to find out it wasn’t my laptop. It seems that my new Wireless Router is giving me CRC errors when I download ANYTHING. I can’t open zips, or rar’s; and videos that are downloaded show signs of corruption.

I need to fix this, or buy a new router ASAP.

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Mobile Data

Posted on June 11, 2010 by Bobosan

I’ve been reading in the news how AT&T is raising the cost per GB of their iPhone data plans. I really hope Verizon doesn’t follow suit. I use anywhere from 700MB to 4GB a month of data on my Droid Incredible, and it would be asinine to have to pay even more just to get email and listen to music.

This sort of goes back to text message usage. Text messages represent a 1,000+ times mark up for the data they truly represent. I’m sure 1GB of Celluar Bandwidth at wholesale rates is much,much,much cheaper than AT&T wants us to pay for it. I hope Verizon doesn’t cripple their new smartphone’s like AT&T wants to.

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Going Through The Motions

Posted on May 23, 2010 by Bobosan

It seems to get longer and longer between updates. I tried to resolve myself to writing more often, but when I sit down to do it, things just don’t flow. Eventually, I get frustrated, and just delete whatever was bothering me that day.

I’m still bothered by work, but I can’t place the reason why. I feel bored, like it’s all just a bad dream. I get tired of doing the same measurements and gathering the same data over and over again. It feels like one of Dante’s hells. I’m taking off this Friday, so I’ll have 4-day weekend with Memorial Day. That will be nice, even if I just lounge at home and mope. Four days a week of work, for two weeks is fine by me.

I’m still not happy or content with my life. I feel like there’s something huge missing, and I’m just going the actions most days. Women around Kansas pretty much bore me. I had a date last Friday that was terrible, and quite frankly a waste of time and money. The girl I was really interested in, well that didn’t turn out at all. I guess I wasted my time with her as well. I guess that’s what things boil down to anymore, a waste of time.

I’ve been talking to my friend Amanda late at night. She’s a recovering alcoholic, and her outlook on life gives me strength and hope, as well as a bit of humor. I’ve been trying to get her ass up here so we can grab some Thai food together, but doesn’t seem that things are working out. She’s always busy, and I hate driving down there. Maybe I’ll get her ass up here before the end of the year to share some noodles with.

Working on this site used to give me so much pleasure. I used to enjoy doing the WordPress thing. I suppose the only thing tech related that has given me pleasure lately has been the new HTC Droid Incredible I got. I’m basically a slave to the forums, waiting for it to be rooted so I can do beyond-geeky things with it. 23 days since it was released, and it’s still not rooted. I’m bringing to lose my faith in the modding community.

Well, maybe I’ll write again soon, maybe I won’t.

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The Sickness

Posted on April 27, 2010 by Bobosan

I’m getting sick of everybody.  I’m getting sick of my apartment, my friends, my family, and Topeka.  I need to get out soon, or I’m going to snap.  Sigh.

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