It sometimes seems like all I write about anymore is my love life. Usually, things I write about that are pretty negative, but the last week has been amazing. Danyale and I have been hanging out whenever we can, and it usually involves kisses and “I love you’s”. And that makes everything else seem easier in my life, knowing that the girl I care about, can admit her feelings for me, and not hide them anymore. I can almost breathe with a sigh of relief, almost anyhow.
Things aren’t completely back to normal, I wouldn’t say we’re ‘dating’ right now, because there’s still some issues that need to be worked out, but I’d say it doesn’t matter if we’re dating or not. I suppose thats just a generic label to any relationship, but Danyale’s and I’s go beyond the typical. It’s amazing how someone like her can brighten my day up with three little words, but cast me into hell when we fight. No one has ever had that power over me before, and it’s a little unnerving. But, I’ve told Danyale I’m done with fighting now. I don’t want to argue or bicker, I just want to live. And, since I’ve told her that, seems have genuinely gotten a lot better.
I haven’t seen her in person in almost two days, and it’s killing me. Talking on the phone used to be enough when we lived 600 miles apart;but, being in the same city as her, and not being able to see her is hard. I have to bite back on myself sometimes to stop from calling her or texting her. I wonder if she still does the same?
What would make me happy is her to share my bed again. Sex isn’t a priority in my life, but the feeling of waking up to someone you care about is a feeling I haven’t shared with many people. Tonight, I had an absolutely terrible day at work, and I wanted to just come home and cuddle up with her. Of course it didn’t work out that way, but talking to her and hearing those three little words made me feel a lot better. If I didn’t talk to her then, I’d be really, really pissed and upset at this moment, but I’m not—simply because of her.
Tomorrow I have to work early again. Luckily, I get off at four, and her and I should be able to watch a movie tomorrow. I’m thinking Titanic, something fun and entertaining, yet romantic at the same time. She went to a wedding today, so I’m sure she has some thoughts of romance in her mind because of that. I hope they’re good thoughts, not ‘oh crap! I’m scared of commitment!’ thoughts though. Plus, we still have a few more things to talk about, especially concerning a situation that happened this weekend that we haven’t had a chance to talk about. It’s this simple talk, and tomorrow night that will fuel me for the rest of the day, and I’ll be counting down the hours until I get off. I just want to see the girl who has my heart, and whom I have hers. Is that too much to ask?
