Deep Inside My Thoughts

I was looking forward to the 21st, which would have been my last day as a manager, but now I’ve agreed to wait until September 3rd to step down, just so Kent can visit his kid in Iowa.  I suppose it’s only an additional two weeks, but I was really looking forward to just driving and making money.   Screw being management at Pizza Hut, it’s not worth it.   So I have two more weeks and I’m done for good, and no more favors for anyone after that.

In exchange for  doing this, I’m getting September 7th to the 9th off.  My dad’s  coming out for the weekend, and it will be nice to see him for a few days.  I wonder what we’ll do to pass the time is this cursed state?  Last time we went to a airplane museum, which was interesting, but I can’t think of anything else to do around Topeka at all.  I suppose we’ll watch a movie, but I didn’t see anything coming out that week that I’d like to see.  So what happens, I guess we’ll just have to play that by ear.

Danyale and I have been fighting more and more lately, and it’s just adding on to my general stress level.  I don’t know quite whats wrong with her, but after her recent blog entry, I think things will continue to get a little worse before they get a little better.  It’s ironic that someone I have known for so long, and loved talking to on the phone, is having trouble with me living together.

I think part of it has to do with her actually having to have money to buy things.  When she graduated college, I supported her for almost two months while she was searching for a job.  Now that she has one, she’s paying her fair share of things, like rent and food.   For the last few weeks she’s been paying Me a little more though, to make up for some things she needed like a cell phone.  She starts out the week fine, but immediately goes out and buys things.  She bought a purse last week, and some new clothes the week before that.   I wouldn’t have a problem with this usually, but come Friday or Saturday, she’s broke and I’m shelling out money to pay for her food and whatever else she needs.   I just wish someone could shell some cash out for me, because, some days I’ll come home with $100  in my pocket, and only have $30 left the next day.

Another reason I think is how small this apartment is.  There’s no where to go to get away from each other.  But, in order to move into a new apartment, that requires money saved up for a deposit and the other fee’s required in moving.  Right now, I’m in no position to save that much cash myself.  So we need to either change our lifestyle habbits—eat at home more, and spend less; or we need to resign ourselves to living here.  I’m guilty of eating out a lot more than I really need to, and I probably spend at least $200 a month on eating out just by myself.  If I could trim that down to $150 or so eating at home, it’d go a long way in helping me out in the long run.

Hopefully after I get things with work settled, everything around here will improve, and I’ll be much happier.  I’ve thought a lot about going back to school, and perhaps even changing my major to something like finance.  Over the last few months, I’ve been reading quite a lot about it in general, and I think it might be something I would enjoy doing the rest of my life.  In fact, it’s probably the primary reason I bitch about money right now.  I want to get my debt’s paid off, and start saving up for something.  I want to be able to toss some money into a mutual fund, or just go out and buy some new toy for cash, and it’s killing me that I can’t!   I need to do something about that.