Danyale’s Play and Relationship Problems

I went to Danyale’s play last Thursday, and have a pretty good time. I went up Wednesday night, just so I could spend a little bit more time with her, and have a talk with her.

The entire drive up, I was pretty worried and going over every possible situation in my head. I actually ended up giving Ryan a call (he left a message on my blog earlier) and talked to him for probably a good 30 minutes on the way up. That still left me 45 minutes alone in the car to ponder about everything and anything. It wasn’t the best thing in the world to think about at the time.

When I got up to Highland, I walked in and Danyale ran up to give Me a kiss. I wasn’t really feeling ‘kissy’ at the moment, so I just gave her a small peck instead, and noticed she was dying her hair red. Darrel was up there too, hanging out with everyone he used to go to school with. I originally planned to talk to her right away, but I had to wait for her to get done dying her hair.

After she finally finished up rinisng her hair out, I planned to take a drive and talk. I was feeling kind of hungry. My choices were St. Joesph, MO, or Wal-mart in Hiwatha. Well, Darrel was kind of hungry too, and Emily decided she wanted to go to Walmart also, so instead of having some alone time with Danyale, I had to wait, again, until we got back. Though, it was fun going to Walmart with Emily and Darrel.

When we all got back, we devoured the sandwhich that Darrel and I bought, and Danyale and I finally got to talk. The moment I thought about all that day was finally here. And, damn, was it hard. I told her what I expected from her. I told her how much I love and care about her, and I told her no more. I reminded her of what she promised me last time. None of it kicked in at first.

It’s only when I started to get dressed, gather my shoes and coat, and get ready to leave did it work. I guess she didn’t think I was really serious about leaving over this issue. After that, things kind of got better fairly quickly. We both realized how serious this issue was, and how much we need each other. So, ultimately, a promise was made, we hugged and kissed, and went to sleep.

The next day we woke up around noon, and hightailed it to St. Joe to grab some Famous Bowls from KFC. Famous Bowls, like Chinese Food, is becoming one of our traditions. After eating, I ended up just driving around St. Joe for awhile, and eventually discovered that Jesse Jame’s once lived there. It took us about 30 minutes to find his house, and it wasn’t quite what I expected. It seemed too small for an outlaw with the infamy of Jesse James.

Soon, it was time to get Danyale back to Highland in time for her play. She didn’t really want to go back so soon, but I wanted to get out of St. Joe and stop running around wasting gas. We ended up laying together on her bed until 6, when she had to go get ready for the play.

I’m writing this a few days later, and although I think everything is better, a part of me still worries. In roughly two weeks, she’ll be moving in. Everything is close as can be. And this would be a terrible time to lose her. I don’t think I’ll be the same until I have her living with me. Only then, will everything be alright in my mind, once again.