Another Sappy Post
Mar 28th, 2007 by Bobosan
Danyale was here for a week and a half, and now, she’s gone. I’m not laughing or smiling, or even having fun right now. But, when she’s here, I have a blast; even if I’m just on my computer playing a game while she’s on the laptop. It’s more fun to have her around. Two more long months.
I’ve never felt as much love towards someone as I do her. She feels the same way, and she say’s it scares her. It scares me too. With her, I have someone I WANT to be with and be around constantly. Our love is a raging fire. We need each other.
But when I’m alone, laying in bed at night, I do the same thing I’ve always done: I think. What if our love doesn’t work out? What if something happens? It’s always the ‘what if’s’. But the crazy thing is, when she’s around, I don’t think about that. In fact, it’s the thing least on my mind. With her, I’m happy. With her, I have purpose. With her, I’m something.
Without her, I don’t know what I would be. If we don’t work out, damn, I’ll be hurt for the first time by a girl. Usually I’m the one that hurts them :P. We talk about the future, about having kids, and getting married, and enjoying life. It sounds so true, and so pure. God, I hope it works out.
You know, I can’t say I dont think about the what if’s when I’m with you. I do. But you always make that go away. I’m just scared that we’re both gonna get burned by the “raging fire” you call our love. All I want is for you to be here. RIGHT NOW! I feel like a 3yr-old throwing a damn tantrum. And only you make me do this! lol…who would have thought 3 yrs ago…that we would be where we are now? By the way…I posted another blog. I only hope you don’t take it the wrong way and freak out. lol…just remember…it’s me just writing what’s going on in my head so I don’t do something stupid!