Deep Inside My Thoughts

I went to Kansas this weekend to hang out with Danyale, and get a job. Surprisingly, I managed to balance both of them, and get all I wanted to do done.

It’s always fun when I start out on a mini vacation like this weekend. I get almost giddy when I”m on the road, with the sound of the wind rustling as I speed down the road, and music blaring out of my CD player. But this trip, well, was alot longer than I remember. Last time I was in Kansas, I was quite mad, and pissed, and I guess time just passes quicker in a cramped car when you’re seeing red at every milemarker.

But it didn’t take too long to get to Highland, where Danyale goes to school. I stopped a few times to get some smokes, eat, and made an unsuccessful run for some dayQil in rural Missouri. Even with all these side trips, I made the 600 mile trip in roughly nine hours. The sun was even shining for 90% of the trip, and the small patches of rain I ran into were just that—small.

So I finally pull into Highland, KS, which is this small town with a college in it. It surely didn’t look like a college town from the roadway. It was about the size of Yorktown where I used to live, and the college took up more than half the town. The dorms took up a good percent of the college too. I don’t really know how the hell some one decides to put a college out there, in the middle of nowhere, with nothing around for 20 miles. Kansas is just plain weird.

After I get into town, I go about meeting Danyale. She’s pretty much all I’ve been expecting—beautiful smile, cute face, nice eyes. And it’s nice to just sit down with her in her room for awihle and talk. But then I start coughing again, and then hacking. I’m sick. I’m with a cute girl, and coughing up a lung! So we both decide to go into the nearest town, St. Joe, to get some medicine and some dinner. And we set off, taking a Kansas backroad to get a third of the way there.

Then we finally get into town. But not after driving right past the exit we needed while Danyale had her head burried in my cell phone, putting in her families phone numbers in case she has an seizure. So, we have to turn around, and find Walmart. The medicine was pretty uneventful, and we decided to get some dinner at Applebee’s. Ironically we both order steak. It’s nice having dinner with her. The first time I’ve really met her, and we’re both laughing and smiling. Life is good. Time seemed to fly by.

The next few days was like that. It was just so much fun being with her. T’was never a dull moment between both of us. I can’t wait to go back out there, where I’m actually happy. I’m happy with her…thats a very scary thought. But it’s about as true as I can get to myself. God, the things men do for women. God, the things I’ll do for her. She’s my savior, my lust, and my future, and my weakness all rolled into one. She can make or break me. Only time will tell.

I have a job out there at Pizza Hut waiting for me. I Just need to get a place to live ASAP, and I can move. I can start over, and make my own life be like how I really want it. I just need to find a damned apartment from 600 miles away, and figure out how to pay for it. If I manage to do that…I’ll be okay in the end.