Deep Inside My Thoughts

Gena’s wedding was amazing. It wasn’t amazing in the fact of what went on, or who showed up, just in the fact that I felt truly happy for her. I thought I was going to be late, because I was having tie problems, and was kinda stressed to begin with. I wanted to be there 20 minutes early, but only arived five minutes early. It worked out though, since Gena had some ‘equipment problems’ and the wedding didn’t start til 3:40.

Seeing someone for the first time is worrysome enough. When that first time is her wedding, its a little more stressful. Ginger wasn’t what I’d thought she’d be, but Gena was. I guess thats due to the fact I used to watch Gena’s cam when we started talking. When Ginger saw me in the church, she smiled and softly said “hey!” to me. Shortly thereafter, Gena began to walk into the chapel. I recognized her imediately, and flashed her a smile. It was nice meeting someone I’ve been so close to, and do really care about. I guess over the past few months I’ve gotten really close to Gena, more close to her than her sister. Gena was beautiful in her dress, and I couldn’t stop smiling because of it.

It was a rather short service that lasted only about 15 minutes. After that we went down into the basement for the ‘reception’. I talked to Ginger a wee bit here, since Gena was beluged by everyone else. I really don’t think I talked to Ginger as much as I wanted to. I mean, it’s not everyday I’m in North Carolina, but still, I wanted to talk a little more. I kinda felt put off really by Ginger. I know we haven’t talked as much as we used to, but I expected more conversation from her. We’re supposed to hang out tomorrow before I leave, but I don’t think she’ll actually call me. If she doesn’t, I will just flat out not talk to her.

I didn’t really feel welcome until we all went out for dinner, sans Ginger. I managed to score a seat across from Gena, which probably helped out a lot. Gena had the great idea she was going to wear her Bridal Dress to this local resturant. I laughed my ass off at her curled up in her little corner with her dress sprawled on the floor. For an hour and a half, it was just pure fun talking with everyone at the table. I learned alot about Chris, and some new things about Gena..like she was in ROTC growing up. Things that you never really know because nothing brings them up. I’m so glad I came here. It was worth every red cent I spent. I needed a break like this.

I ended up giving Chris and Gena a ride back to the hotel. Turns out, they are staying here too. I don’t think I’ll see either of them before I take off, which kind of makes me sad. I wish I had more time to spend talking to her, but I don’t. I’m kinda worried that since she’s married now, once Chris gets stationed stateside, we won’t talk as much. I know Ginger is like that, but I kinda think Gena is too. I guess time will tell on that fact, and the fact she’s incommunicado right now only adds to my worry. I really hope we can continue to talk like we were, not having her around is kinda making me sad.