Lotte is supposed to be over here pretty soon. I don’t think it’s going to happen though. She doesn’t seem motivated to call SAS (Scandanavian Air Services) and poke around for tickets. Seems like we only talk for an hour or so every few days lately. I remember talking all hours of the day to her. She’s like a sister to me.
She always gets asshole guys. I never seem to like them. And then when stuff goes south, she stays attached. I was like that with Cara for awhile, but you know, I got over it. Hell, I even talk to Cara now ocassionaly too. But, Lotte,I worry about her. Its been said you remember only the negative things about someone. I know a lot about Lotte to worry. I remember her not talking for months, and before that, worrying when she was missing for 40 days.
I don’t know why I care so much about someone so far away. And it’s not even a romantic feeling, its strictly plutontic. But, I listen to her go on and on about a guy, and it tears me up. She needs a good guy in her life, perferably another Dane. (Her fetish seems to be Americans.) I guess some people just love drama, and Lotte might be one of those people. I don’t mean that in a bad way. But some people are just Type-A, and well, she is definatly one of those.
Maybe she’ll come over, maybe she won’t. If she doesn’t hurry, I wont be able to get time of work to actually do anything with her. Though, thats assuming there is something to do. Columbus has always been a small town, and besides a bar crawl in Indy, I don’t know what to do. Maybe some friends are best left unseen.
Do we even call these people friends? Is someone we talk to about our most personal of issues, but never see a friend? Its weird too, because of the time zone difference, there are only two windows where we can talk usually. It seems phone time will be cut short now since her roommate works from home. I can’t just call her up, since her cell phone costs me $.75 a minute internationally. What can I do?
It’s funny, because Lotte has the power to either make me laugh and smile, or just piss me off. Not a lot of people get that close. Most people I keep at a distance, and always have the option of just severing off ties with them. Not with Lotte though, I don’t think I could shirk from any duty towards her, and sometimes that’s an unbelieveable cross to bear. It just seems so hard sometimes, listening to her go on about the same guys over and over, knowing that if they get back together, she’ll get broken again.
The Russian (Actually, Russian is too good, the Georgian) threatened to kill her last time they broke up. She still wants him. Michael, her ex, used to beat her around. She still wants him. I just dont understand Lotte. I don’t. I’m confused. I guess all I can do is sit back, wait, and call out the Kings Men when the time is right.