Deep Inside My Thoughts

Ahh forget about sleep, at least for now.

I work today. I need to sleep, but I can’t. The sun is shining directly onto my bed, warming me up as I lie there trying to get some shut eye. I was stupid for putting my bed right where it is. But, its the only place in my room for it to go. One the upside, being warmed by the sun is a good thing to wake up to in the morning…just not at 2pm in the afternoon, because I’m burning up.

I’ll be back on a ‘normal’ sleep schedule for school in the Fall. My first class will be at 8am, and my last about 1pm. I bought this laptop so I can actually get school work done at school, because I dont want to run home just to sit around for an hour before I have to go back for a class. That’s one thing that IUPUC is bad about, day classes. I miss Ball State for that. It’s a shame I screwed up so bad there. But, I like the chance to start again.

Going to school at 21, and being a freshman is not a fun thing. I don’t know how Fall will be, but in my summer classes right now, I’m usually the younger or youngest one there. There’s a guy in my Intro To Speech Communciaiton class that is 45. Most of the other ones are mid-thirties. Kind of hard to fit in, but I do alright I think. I need to call a guy from there, and have him fax me some notes I missed on Wednesday. I’m going to do some research tonight on my speech topic and need those to proceed.

Its very odd that I’m happy about starting a new blog. I really liked it when I started my old LJ, and would post a few times a day. I think this will be a lot better though. For some reason, I didn’t mind filling out a new profile, and I got distracted by looking at everyone in Columbus that has a blog on here. There aren’t too many, and there aren’t really any that are active.

I was talking to my friend Lotte from Denmark about the size of my city last night. She’s flying over here in September for two weeks and was kinda surprised that Columbus is only about roughly 35,000 people. Her ’small’ village in Denmark, Aalborg, is 200,000 people. The girl will be in for culture shock. The only places she’s been in the US is New York City and New Mexico. There is a corn field in my back yard… I wonder how she is going to react to THAT.

Still, she promised to go dancing, and I really cant wait. I really dont dance, but I told her I would try it…for her. Its funny whenever we talk to each other. She’s a really cute girl, but I dont want her. I was scared to flirt with her a year or two ago when I first met her because she was going through a breakup at the time. I guess comforting her over the next few months, and watching her turn from a lively girl into a broken shell changed her in my eyes. I didn’t want her after that, and today, she’s more like a sister to me. She is perhaps one of the people I confide in the most.

It’s funny that I confide in her, considering I have never met her. I look forward to it though, and I know we will have fun together. Seems like there’s a lot of people I’m looking forward to meeting, and it’s going to be tough to pencil them all in. Lotte has preference though, because I chickened out on going to Denmark last year to see her. This year, it will be different though.

I don’t really talk to that many women online. I know it will seem like it, but I just have a ton of female friends. I overcompensate now for lack of female company while I was growing up. Hell, my cell phone has almost sixty names in it. I can’t keep up with half of them. So some friends get more lip service than others, while others are forgotten all together. It’s funny how when you add a person as a friend, it changes the entire dynamics. You have the same ammount of time to talk, but you have another person to talk to. How do you keep up with everyone and make them happy? Simple, you don’t. I couldn’t talk to sixty people in a week. So, I end up sending ambigous mass emails out. It saves me a ton of time, and lets me keep up with friends.

That sleep thing again. Until I wake up…..