Im tired again. I’ve been up since around 8pm yesterday. Yesterday was my day off so I pretty much slept after I beat this stupid game. I slept my whole day away. Whats worse is that I couldnt sleep before work this morning, and when I tried to take a nap after my first shift, my thoughts were churning again. I really can’t sleep unless I’m dead tired, when I try to go to sleep at night I usually just lie there for an hour or so before I fall asleep because my mind keeps going over things. I hate that. Tonight though, I should sleep soundly because I know for a fact that my body will be exhausted at 10ish when I get off work. No more split shifts! I work tomorrow @ 4 so I’m probably gonna sleep right on til 1 or 2 tomorrow. I could really use a goods night sleep…except for last night…its been about a week now.
I got a reponse to the email I sent Lotte. It was a little more than I expected, but I still don’t know what to do. How far do I go to talk to her again? 4 months or so right now. I enjoyed talking to her, but … begging .. is kinda hard for me. I’m sure I’ll keep at it though. I guess I should feel like an ass for a while still. Shouldn’t I? God knows, cause I dont. Sometimes I do…sometimes I dont. Sometimes I want nothing more than lotte again, other times I just dont want to bother with getting her back. Very hard to explain, and I dont know what will happen. Me spamming her, waiting for the off chance shes online doesnt work. Shes changed her numbers too, so this phone card I bought a while ago is just sitting here. Funny shit though, its cheaper to call Denmark than it is to call like Ohio. International
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