Deep Inside My Thoughts

Goodbye Cara. I will miss you, you know I will. But I cant stand what you are anymore. Thankfully, you’re not my problem anymore. So enjoy Justin, but dont fucking hurt him. Maybe you can touch a guy, and have him not hate you. All I have ever told about you , surprisingly hate you. Marusha, Kristina, Teter, Merritt, Spirted , Merely, Lazzarius, Kayrissa, the list goes on babe. Enjoy your Pink Passion, have fun, grow up, mature, and be merry. Goodbye Cara. And, At the end, I really dont have any hard feelings, I blame myself for falling for a person like you. Sweet Dreams Cara

greykoreq: did you read kiloks post?
Cara : Nope whats up? Should i?
greykoreq: http://www.recon-eci.org/forums/showthread.php?s=&threadid=19110
Cara : awwwww !!!
greykoreq: awww?
Cara : Yeah
greykoreq: I dont get it
Cara : thats sweet
greykoreq: ?
greykoreq: its me all over
Cara : Not quite
greykoreq: LOL
greykoreq: okay
greykoreq: its just a little hard to read I guess
Cara : sorry
greykoreq: dont be.
greykoreq: when is he coming ?
Cara : sept 21
greykoreq: cool
greykoreq: so its romantic?
Cara : It could be
greykoreq: good.
greykoreq: I hope it lasts.
Cara : Im not going to make decisions till he gets here
greykoreq: Heh
greykoreq: i dont know how to feel lol
Cara : ?
greykoreq: well cara
greykoreq: you need someone local
greykoreq: hes becoming a cop, he wont be there for you. Its me and or greg all over hun.
Cara : Aaron, back off
greykoreq: I will.
greykoreq: i’m not being mean, I’m trying to be a friend, not bitter right now
Cara : Yeah, well this is my decision. Let me shoot myself in the foot if thats what i end up doing
Cara : I would rather regret somethign that ive done then soemthing that i didnt do
Cara : And meeting him feels right.
greykoreq: then meet him
greykoreq: but in 2 months you will find someone new, and you will break his heart.
Cara : Like i said, back off. Its alot less serious then you think
greykoreq: lol cara, I have to take a stand on this, I cant let you compromise your values
Cara : Aaron back off…
Cara : I know what im getting myself into. Ive weighed the pros and cons
greykoreq: Has he?
Cara : Yes he has
greykoreq: Poor kid.
Cara : it was his idea to come out here
greykoreq: well good for him
Cara : So back off
greykoreq: I’m backing off forever.
greykoreq: with no hardfeelings .
Cara : LOL you’re going to give up our friendship over this?
greykoreq: what friendship did we ever have?
greykoreq: and no not over this
Cara : Alright. Your choice
greykoreq: sec I ned a damn smoke, ill explain myself
Cara : Good Luck in life hon. I hope you find what you’re looking for
greykoreq: I hope you find what you’re looking for too cara.
Cara : thanks. Goodnight
greykoreq: Because grasping for attention isnt going to do it.
greykoreq: You have to be everyones girl, the best in everyone’s eye.
greykoreq: You hurt people, you know that?
Cara : Thats nothing you can say to me to piss me off tonight so stop trying.
greykoreq: Listen to me Cara
greykoreq: I’m not pissing you off
greykoreq: I’m telling you how it is, how everyone else sees it
Cara : So goodnight. Maybe ill see you in game sometime
greykoreq: There is a god damn reason people dont like you, beause they see thru you.
Cara : No hard feelings?
greykoreq: You are a liar, tweeds and greg are right about that.
Cara : OMG aaron WTF…serious man
Cara : Stop LOL
greykoreq: no cara, if I sac our friendship, I do it to try to help you.
Cara : If our friendship is over lets just let it be over
greykoreq: You can’t go on with a new guy every 2 months
greykoreq: You can’t break everyones heart
Cara : LOL you arent helping me with shit
greykoreq: You need to take a long hard look at your life cara.
greykoreq: Kilok is a good guy, dont fucking hurt him
Cara : Im not planning on it
greykoreq: You do this, you go all the way, you dont call him up and tell him you met a guy.
Cara : Thank you for your concern. GOodnight Aaron
greykoreq: I was friends with an ideal cara, not you.
greykoreq: And the more I think about it, the real you pisses me off.
greykoreq: You manipulate people, you lie, you cheat, you backstab
Cara : LOOK I WANT THIS more then anything. Hes a great friend and has been. IM SORRY that you cant understand that maybe there was something with him that i didnt have with you.
greykoreq: Josh saw, Greg saw it, Brad saw it, Now I have seen the light.
greykoreq: no cara, all we had was an orgasm.
greykoreq: That was the basis of our relationship
Cara has signed out. (8/23/2004 7:00 AM)

greykoreq: Don’t fucking hurt justin.
Cara : I DONT FUCKING PLAN ON IT
greykoreq: Because, I respect him.
Cara : GOOD
Cara : LOL but i dont plan on hurting him
greykoreq: And its great he feels so strongly about you, but its sad.
greykoreq: You hurt everything you touch, just dont hurt the sham
greykoreq: Because so fucking god, everyone I ever told about you, hates you.
greykoreq: And I’m so pissed off for myself for being so in “love” with you for so long.
greykoreq: Bet you didnt expect this? its amazing what 4 hours of deep thought can do.
Cara : You were fine with me today. You were fine untill you knew he was coming otu here and thinks im awesome..
greykoreq: No cara
greykoreq: I knew he was coming out
Cara : You were fine until you found out he had feelings…
greykoreq: lol
Cara : GET OVER IT
Cara : GET OVER ME
greykoreq: I am over you cara
Cara : GET OVER OUR PAST
greykoreq: but I owe you something
greykoreq: And that is the light of what you are.
greykoreq: You manipulate
Cara : I know what i am, i realize what ive done and what i havnt done.
greykoreq: All you got out of me was a $30 vibrator
greykoreq: You enjoy what you do to people?
greykoreq: You cried because you hurt me, but you’ve always hurt people.
greykoreq: You wont find happiness until you change how you are.
greykoreq: Get your life on track, maybe move out and get a taste of life for a year
greykoreq: but cara, change for him.
greykoreq: And, now no hard feelings, see you around Cara Mae Chandler.

Oh hell, I’ve been wanting to say this for a while…now is the time. The only regret is that, whenever you are pleasuring yourself with the vibrator I provided you, you will have a little piece of me in you. That repulses me. Should have gave teh damn thing to Meagan for a birthdaygift.