Ahh, the joys of another day. Its funny how a few hours sleep will make you forget that which bothered you so much mere hours before. I really miss talking to Cara like we used to. But those days are gone I think. For now, we are part time friends I think. If she says Hello, I will reply and even chit chat a bit, but other than that, if she doesnt contact me, I’m not gonna contact her. I guess she needs space from me, and I can surely do that. Enough drama…enough about that. I remember why I used to love going to work…I could loose myself in it. I dont have time to dwell on my problems there…its fast paced and I have a ton of stuff left to do in the next five days. Work is entirely theraputic for me. I need to work harder so I bitch less 
. I like the fact that I can be alone on my job if I want to, or get help if I need it. I have taken the attitude of informing my superiors what happened, rather then seeking permission. Its a nice feeling to be able to do that again. I set up my camera display today, and to do that I pullled every camera out and organized them….I had about $200,000 of electronics in shopping carts for 8 hours…it was damn funny. I wonder how much shit got stolen today.
I’ve talked to Julia the last 4 or 5 days. Shes a really cool person , and confuses me and capitvates me. She has so many problems, but she remains positive sometimes, and in darkness the next minute. We talked for a few hours on EQIM the other day. Talked to her about hopes and dreams, childhood, plans shit like that. It was damn fun, and time just flew by. Julia is one of the reasons I called in sick monday, because I talked to her for hours before I called cara…then talked for more hours after cara fell asleep. Shes a Russian living in Denmark. Interesting by its self, but she is a good person too. She was telling me about her childhood tongiht. Her dad left her when she was 3, and her mom made up for his absence by dating everything that moved. Poor little Julia had to clean, cook, and do all that grown up stuff at six years old. I dont remember when she said she imigrated to Denmark, but think it was when she was 17…so six years ago. Shes engaged to a Dane right now, but wants this other guy who rebuffed her. Shes not in love with her BF, but rather indebted because he loves her. She said she would be happy with a lover when shes married. Shes 23 now, and going to some college. She certinally has her issues, but I’m begining to see her in a more positive light. She seems so hungry for attention and affection, and I can certinaly do that much. She keeps me entertained throughtout the day, and keeps me from thinking about Cara or any other of my life problems. For that I’m very thankful to her. I know I do the same with her, and shes starting to be a true friend to me, Its so nice talking to someone who wants to talk again. Its refreshing. Its ego stroking….its fun.
I miss Lotte. Its been over a week now since we’ve talked . She hasnt replied to my emails. I still dont know if shes alive. Worst feeling to have. Lotte I really miss you sweets, come back soon Only 10 more days and you said you’d be back! I’m counting the days. I miss talking to you before I go to work, seeing your face on webcam, and getting music from you. I miss your conversation most of all Lottte. I miss my Pally in the Cult of The Undying Greykor 
I wish you would let me know how you are doing, Iam worried Lotte. I hope everything is fine and I’m just thinking the worst. Thinking about it…I am thinking the worst LOL.
Tweeds just got on, Gonna go shoot the shit with her I suppose, talked to Meagan earlier, told her she didnt have to drink. Gave her my little antidrinking speech. Didnt go to well, so gonna shoot the shit with tweeds, and go to sleep. Sweet dreams.
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