Oh, what a day! What a shitty day, hopefully sleep will make me forget, but I have to open the store tomorrow, so I’ll still be FUCKING PISSED OFF in the morning. (still not bitter), Work fucking sucked, Ill never EVER go into work early again. Fuck that shit. Y’all dont pay me enough to babysit fucking children. Fuck that, y’all dont pay me enough anyways. Its fucking sad that if I have 2 computers to work on, I make more in 4 hours doing that, than I do in 40. You wonder why I’m so fucking happy to be at work? Its for the simple fact that I will purchase your god damn shitty company and canibalize your job. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THEM APPLES? I’M RICK JAMES, BITCH. Pay me shit to do your work, see how long I last in your shitty “Lets be Fucking Happyi” Company. Fun,Fast, and Friendly my god damn ass.
So what else is happening….Lotte is happening. Lotte, I don’t know what you think, but you’re wrong. You tell me to have fun with Cara, but you dont realize the situation. I have lost Cara, at least the cara you want me to have fun with. Lotte, she doesn’t love me, and I dont love her anymore either. We’re just friends. That’s all we are. We don’t talk for hours upon hours like we used to, I’m not like that anymore to her. Even when I was like that, you still ment a ton to me. I care about you because I am you friend. Its for that simple reason I put up when you said I was nothing to you, and that I was going to hurt you. I told you once “I won’t hurt you, I just want to be your friend, I don’t want to fuck you” and I meant it. You’re a blast to talk to, and you mean so much to me. I still wait for the hours until you wake up, just so we can talk a little. I stood by you when you wouldnt let damn near anyone else near you. I kept my ground when you wouldnt answer me becuase you were so sad. I didnt do that shit because I want to hurt you, I did it because I’m your friend. And, when you called me a puppy to cara, you’re damn right I am. Although I dont love her, there are feelings still there, and I cheer up whenever I can call her. I’m damn lucky to still have Cara as a friend lotte, and Im damn lucky to have you. I dont have Cara like you tell me I do. I won’t ever have her like you say I do. All I have really is friends…and by god damn, you are one of them. I’m sorry if you feel like ive been ignoring you, but i havent. Both of you give me a smile, and both of you can make or break my day. And lotte, I never want to break your day, you know that. I will email you soon hun. Have fun, don’t do anythiing you’ll regret and be safe … for we shall talk soon.
Well…Juillaa…you have to wait for tomorrow, too tired to make your rant tonight…and well, there was another one, but that waits for tomorrow too.
Fucking goodnight. Sweet dreams, live long + prosper
Quote :
” That rabbit is fucked….”
“No Tommy, proper fucked”.
