For years, I have dreamt about just one day disappearing. It used to be Europe I wanted to go. Now it seems it’s the west coast. I dont think i’m moving there FOR cara…I think I’m moving for me, not for her. Wait, I know I’m moving for me. Cara is just a friend, and i’m happy with that. I’m happy being able to flirt with all the girls I talk to again. I gave all I had to cara, but I’m glad I can spread it around again 
. If I follow through with this, I’m 90% sure it will be without my family’s blessing…and thats fine with me. But…there’s always the 10% chance I’ll get their blessing and maybe even get some support. It would be nice to get a plane ticket or something to check out Cali before I up and drive there.
more later, hard to write
