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by Bobosan on Jun.29, 2004, under Main
There is a fine line you walk between being a friend and wanting something more. I still want something more from cara. I said yesterday I wanted to be true to my heart again. I will be too. I do love cara still. It hurts so much hearing her be so down about Josh. I wish I could do something for her like I used to do. I guess people change, and Im not the important thing on Cara’s mind anymore. She care’s about Josh now. But that really doesnt change how I feel towards her. I’m still in love with her /sigh. I can’t bury the same emotion she said I shouldnt bury, but be true to. It’s quite a paradox. Do you hurt the one you love by telling them you love them, or ignore it . I don’t think I can just ignore it anymore.
But what does telling her i love her do? Does it fix the current situation? No, it doesnt. But she has to know I still feel that way, that I still want her. It may not change anything, but she’ll still know. And it will save me problems by trying to hide it. It may not be the thing she needs to hear right now, but I have to say it. Cara Mae Chandler, I love you. There we go. So simple to say, yet so hard. It took everything I had and more to say it the first time, and I’m still as sure of it right now as the first time I said it to her.
Cara, I hope one day you can feel towards me the same way I do towards you. I hope you can listen to your heart and not your logic someday. Goodnight Sweet Cara.
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