Operation Husky ><
by Bobosan on Jun.08, 2004, under Depression
So my friend from Denmark, Lotte, contacted me today to say :
marushaeq (6:07:50 AM): but girl are way more horny when they got their period.. and everything is doable
no wait, that was the wrong line :
marushaeq (6:13:00 AM): i might be fucked up on drugs.. but this weekend i started thinking about some things… to hell with boss, he can kiss my ass… you on the other hand, have been such a good friend to me.. and i dont want that to go away
Now Lotte has had some trouble dealing with a break up from her soulmate of 2 years, and she is starting to rebound, which is totally awesome. It’s like it used to between us: periods of intense bitching and self-loathing intermixed with sarcasm and danish profanity. Needless to say having Lotte tell me I was a good friend kinda picked me up a little. I’m still way sad about Cara. I feel so strongly about her , and sometimes I have to remind myself just how shortly we’ve known each other. Time between us flies, and we always talk about sometihing, and I find myself here, camping Yahoo Messenger waiting for her to log in. Fat chance of that, she’ll probably go to bed when she gets home. She said she’d be home ‘Late Tuesday Morning:”, so by my thoughts, I only have 6 hours left til I can be sure she’s asleep.
What makes people happy? Anyone ever ask themselves that? It is a smile? A Cigarette? A snort of Vodka or perhaps a rough sex? What makes me happy. I need to figure that out. I’m genereally happy for the most part, espically when I’m with my Bard. But, sometimes, I’m just sad for no reason. I feel like an emotional viod onetime, while overflowing with emotions the next. It’s the damndest thing.
I think I’m sad really cause of my fucking stress. I don’t get along with my family very well for the most part, and those that I do get along with, piss me off fairly easily. Add to that a deadend job with a dead end future and you begin to understand how I feel sad sometimes.
Once again, enough for now, I’m gonna go back to camping my friend list for the next six hours.