So its like 4:15 am. I’m fucking bored, I’m fucking tired, and of course I can’t fucking sleep. Insomnia is a bitch. But theres one thing to cure insomnia…thats hardcore EQing. Nothing makes me sleep better than after a long night on the phone with Cara, and long night spent laying in my chair. In fact…I’m so bored, I’m creating a blog like these fucking highschool kids do now. Glad I can be in the in crowd. Lucky me.
Speaking of Cara, I can’t stop thinking about her. Sweet Cara….Precious Cara….. I have my hopes set up for later this year to meet. That would be damn awesome. She means so much to me, and I can’t stand not talking to her. In retrospect, its damn amazing how we met..cause I was tired that night we started talking, and I was going to go asleep insted of staying on. Its kinda funny how ‘fate’ or what not pushes two people together. I can’t fathom how I got along without talking to Cara for hours a night.
In other depressing news….my grandmother is in the hospital…dying. She had diabetic shock a few days ago and her doctors are ordering her off all her medications because of her kidney failing. Gonna have another family member to bury soon I think. Going about once a year now, and in the future, it can only accelerate. I’m still scared that someday I will realize I am the old one in my bloodline. Thats scary shit right there. God, I hate how my future is so undecided. Another comptely random and unconnected statement….gotta get back into school….
Well thats it….I’m out for the night.
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